Muahahahah

This has been running through my head all day....

So I thought I'd share.

Muahahhah

Though I don't know if anyone else will get it >.<

Progress

Progress has been made, though I still don't know how much. (Me, actually BUY batteries for my scale? Pshh)

I do know that my pants are loooose and the belt only helps so much.

My skinny style jeans that I adore because of the color actually *gasp* fit without a half hour of jean stretches after I wash them! (They are a bit stretchy and it's amazing how much they shrink in the wash.)

On the matter of the scale, I am divided. Part of me is avoiding it because I am ashamed that I let myself slip so far, that I let myself get so unhealthy. I love being able to randomly run around screaming like a hyperactive kid, and it was getting to the point where I wouldn't do that because I'd be panting after three steps.

So for now I am measuring my progress not in pounds, but in the fit of my clothes and how I feel.

On another note, I have decided that BC (birth control - pill form) is the devil incarnate where I am concerned.

I originally started on the pill because I get horrible cramps that make it hard to get out of bed.

But despite trying about 10 different kinds, no cramp relief occurred.

What I didn't realize until I stopped taking it last month (after 1.5 years) was just how depressed and anxious it was making me.

I feel like a completely different person now. I'm not having to try to be happy or enthusiastic, it's just there. The random horrible mood swings of doom are gone, to the relief of some ;)

The insomnia is back, but hey. I can deal with insomnia plenty easy when I'm not varying between happy and evil.

On another note: Holes ;P

I will post pictures soon, I keep forgetting when I have my laptop out XD. That's where the pictures are.

On the note of holes:

I would like to note first that I am aware that many people find piercings distasteful in varying degrees. I am also aware of how it impacts how other people may perceive me, and how they may effect my chances of employment in certain fields.

My parents are among those who dislike any piercings, which in part I understand.

I however, find that I greatly enjoy how they look. I am aware that they may be temporary, in the sense that should I be required to remove some or all for a job I will.

That said, the Holes I was referring to in the last post were my birthday gift to myself for committing to a healthier lifestyle and sticking with it the best I can up to this point. They are helping me motivate myself to do even better :)

I treated myself (Heh, I am a bit nuts. I pay people to poke holes in me for 'fun'.) to a 3-hole spiral project (ie: spiral can't go in till it's healed in a few months, so it's separate rings right now) on the outer cartilage of my left ear, and a vertical labret. A vertical labret is a lip piercing that is outside of the mouth. It enters just below the lower lip in the center (for me), and exits on the top of the lip.

Yes, it hurt :) But I love how it looks, even knowing the thoughts behind some of the WTF?!? looks I get sometimes.

Side note: To anyone planning on getting pierced, PLEASE go to a clean, certified! shop!

If they don't have an autoclave to clean stuff, LEAVE! If they don't have single use tools that are opened right in front of you, LEAVE! Same goes for if: they don't use gloves, if they don't ask you to check the markings they make prior to piercing, ect... It's your body, you deserve to be pierced in a clean sterile environment.

Whew. Off topic there.

I believe in the thought that you need to be kind to your body, especially when you decide to undertake any kind of weight loss/gain. Treating yourself to rewards (non food, IMO) as you progress can be a big motivator.

For me, this was  a motivator. For others it could be a massage, a new gym bag, ect...

So, yes. Loooong answer to a short question ;)

So, and so.

Preparing for school to start once more is proving both fun and healthy.
Part of my prep is a 'strict' workout routine to prevent me from dying when my workout classes start back up.

I've been bad about keeping my strength training where it should have been.

Eh, oh well.

So I did bicep curls for 4mins (around 100 or so), with a light weight. Bad me, but I swear it was for a reason. Though my bodysculpting teacher would be ashamed :)
I was working with light weights to perfect my form (MizFit would be happy about that).
Then I did lat raises/front raises and shoulder press.
Also walked quite a bit today, alone and with Techman.

Overall, it's been a good week and I feel good.

My birthday present to myself was paying people to poke more holes in me, but I'm strange like that.

You zee this? *Flex* Zis is vat strength is!

^Don't ask about the title, me and certain friends get a little hyper sometimes^
Hokay, update time.

So, I am 20. Yay? I can tell kids to get off my GD lawn, or I could if I had a lawn ;)
I have still been eating mostly healthy, though breakfast is still missing about half the time.

I have been walking. I would be biking but what with thunder and lightning and such I don't like being on a bike. Water I don't mind. I'd rather bike through rain than walk, unless I have someone to walk with :)

Pushups are still a little lacking (eh), but I'm getting back up!
Me and TechMan have decided that right before bed = not good time for pushups. We keep forgetting until we're already in bed and then....eh, tomorrow.

But I do see progress! Small, tiny progress. But it is still there.
I can see more tone in my arms, and the front flub is slightly less.

The bad? I am veeeeery forgetful. And I always forget my list, which has (you guessed it) the type of battery I need for my scale.
I'm thinking of just getting a dial scale.

Eh.

I will be bad this weekend, and I don't care :)
I was good on my birthday (no choice, there was no cake), so this bridal shower shall be fun and I shall not care what goodies I encounter. But no overeating, obviously.

Oh oh, other cool news, the dress I'm wearing to the wedding is an old 'prom' dress of mine.
('prom' because it was a homeschool prom when I was 17, only one I've been to and it rocked). It's really pretty :). Sleeveless brown velvet till just past the waist, then layers of brown light fabric to the knees. When I wore it to the prom it fit almost perfectly, then it didn't fit so well so I had it in the closet. It fits again, yay!

*Insert Title Here*

So far so good, mostly.
I've still been eating healthy, though I need to workout more like I was a couple weeks ago.

Once I actually start to do something, it's easy to keep going and I usually enjoy it.
It's getting myself to start it that's the hard part.

I've been walking some every day though, and biking a little bit.
Pushups have been lacking, as I just started those back up today.

Still no batteries for the scale (I know, bad bad me), but I AM getting them later today.

Urk

taI turn 20 tomorrow.
yay, woot, cheering, awesome

Yeah. Not excited at all.
A lot of it has to do with stuff I won't be sharing (sorry peeps), but I should say certain things. Should, but won't for today.
I had both people I know and complete strangers say some very hurtful things today.

So I continue the sucky, absolutely not looking forward to birthday tradition.


Some good karma/thoughts would be appreciated if you've any to spare.
I think I'll need some encouragement to stay on track and not just dive off the wagon.

Working back up to it.

I'm mostly better. Mostly meaning that my intestines are still very touchy and generally rather unhappy with me.

My working out has been slacking. I vow to get back to it!

I biked some last week (around 9-10 miles tops), and walked a bit.
Haven't really done any pushups though (bad bad me)

I did some heavy duty cleaning today, which included several trips up and down stairs with garbage/recycling/ect...

And I've been *much* better with my eating. No, it's no all perfect. And I'm fine with that.
But most of what I eat is healthy, and I've been limiting the unhealthy stuff.
And I've been mostly good about eating snacks and breakfast.

So, yeah, I slipped a bit. I wanted comfort foods when I was sick and I ate some of them.
But I didn't let it stop me, I just noted the set back and I'm working my way back up.

What I'm proud of right now is my mindset. I KNOW that it's just a small step backwards following several great steps forwards. So I know it's not a big deal, as long as I keep my goals and priorities in mind.

So I feel like congratulating myself, and I did :) Go me!