Some thoughts about motivation

So I haven't posted in a while (3mths?). No big deal right?
Honestly it's not a big deal when considered alone. I'm using this blog as a tool to help me, but it's not the only tool.

The problem is why I didn't post.

Motivation. Oh it rears it's ugly head again.

Wait, isn't motivation supposed to be a good thing?

And therein lies the problem.

I can look back over the years and one thing is very clear. I am NOT motivated.
I have my moments, sometimes months where I'm gung-ho. But the times I'm not motivated are much more frequent.

I'll read up on fitness and nutrition and get all excited and think 'this is all simple, I just have to do it.' And I will do it for a while. Usually a very short while.

It is very hard for me to get truly motivated.
I've talked about my fears about type 2 diabetes and other health risks associated with being overweight. I've talked about how I want to be able to keep up.

But somehow that's not enough motivation for me, and I'm trying to figure out why.
If a healthy active lifestyle isn't enough motivation then what is?

That's one thing I'm trying to figure out right now.