So...How exactly do I start this?

Blogging....Right. Blogging about my personal life and weight problems ... *cringes*
Cringing said and done, it's high time to get my ass a little further in gear, and I am in dire need of both motivation and some form of self accountability.
So, where to begin? The usual list of random crap?
Name: Ariel
Age: 19
Height: 5'8"
Current Weight: 223. <-- holy hell what have I done to myself? And when did it happen? Goal...scratch that. Healthy Weight: 140-145

So. About me.
Long story short is as follows:
I've been overweight for most of my child and teen years. I blame many factors for this, ranging from horribly low self-esteem, to eating for comfort, to not knowing about nutrition, and in some part due to the fact that I was home schooled (I'll never know, but maybe if I'd been around more people my age - both friends and those who would taunt- maybe.... and I'm sure I would have been more active). I spent much of my time as a couch potato, and I was fine with that.
Was
Summer '06 was a huge step forward for me. I worked as a camp counselor/horse staff at a place where I'd been a camper. Despite not making any real effort to eat healthy (ok, no effort at all), the sheer amount of work I did had me looking and feeling great by the end of the summer. I'm not sure, because I don't think I ever weighed myself, but I think I was down to about 175-180ish (from about 205).

You know how they say that when you fall in love you get fat?
May or may not be true really, surely was not true for me. And yet it was in some ways.
I returned August '06 from my summer job, to find that my crush had moved into town (he'd lived about an hour away before). We started dating November '06, and are still together :)

But the one single downside is that I got complacent. In '06 I still did not know much about nutrition/dieting/exercise/ect... And so I didn't exercise, and I went straight back to my old eating habits.

Fall term '07 (ie: two terms ago) I couldn't stand to look in the mirror. I hated shopping in any form, and I was unhappy with where I was. Over summer '07 I'd done my research, and I realized (and am still realizing) just how unhealthy my lifestyle was. And so I did something rather stupid. I took 5 (yes 5) PAC (physical activity courses) classes.
Body Sculpting
Step Aerobics
Pilates
Physioball +
Kickboxing
Yes, I am aware now that I was clearly mentally insane. By the end of the term I S/U ed 4 and was in Adapted physical activity for the 5th. (Yeah...I forgot to mention, I am a COMPLETE klutz... I fell of the step in step aerobics on the first day I used a high step....ouch.)

I wanted to 'jump start' myself. And it worked for most of the term, and then I got hurt. I was in a boot and on crutches for a couple weeks, then just the boot for a couple more.
Because of this I couldn't take a PAC class winter term, and I let myself believe that I'd done really well...
And I was horrible to by body winter term. Chips, oreos, patsa, candy, more pasta, pizza...
I don't think I saw a single fruit. Maybe a couple veggies.
The worst part? I don't even know how much progress I'd made in fall term. Because of my injury I never got to take the follow up fitness tests. And we'd signed a no-weigh thing, and I couldn't be bothered to find a scale. So who knows? Maybe I'd gotten close to my 175 post camp worker weight.

All I know is that now I'm 223.
I went and bought the scale today, because I've been really working hard. I'd thought my weight was 205, 208 max.
It's really hard to think you're making progress, and then suddenly something hits you.

I'm just really glad that I do have my partner to support me through this. He's been an amazing help, it's much easier to resist that rocky road in the freezer when I've got his hugs and kisses instead. I just need to find a way to get him to the gym with me.... :P

Since spring break I've been making some big changes. Home cooked dinners, every night.
Whatever I make has been at least half veggies every night except two. I'm trying to eat breakfast most days, and eat a healthy lunch. Trying to get the snack thing going as well.
Now that my ankle's healed up (or close enough), I'm back in Body Sculpting class, 2xweek for 1hr each time. I've got indoor soccer once a week for about an hour (season hasn't started yet, I'm hoping we don't have so many women that it's 5mins on the field, 10 in the box. I want to play the whole time! It kills me, but it's so fun!)

So yes, that's about it for now I guess. Good enough intro for someone who's never done this I hope.
I can say that I feel much better now that when I threw (oops) the scale onto the couch an hour ago.